This week’s post comes from Hafzah Zamir. Hafzah has misophonia.
Misophonia, some people haven’t even heard about it. In fact it is so rare that when typed out onto a computer it comes up with a red line under it.
So, let me explain what misophonia is.
Misophonia (which can also be translated as Hyperacusis) literally translates to meaning the hatred of sound.
And believe it or not, this can ruin an individuals life.
Now, I’m one of those people that I have so many things wrong with me that I’m always ill, and some of these illnesses are way more severe than my misophonia, yet my misophonia is what seems to affect me the most.
Certain noises and frequencies of noises can make people react in different ways.
For me, its anger.
The main causes that trigger me are people eating loudly. It may seem pathetic to you, but the noise of food slushing around an individuals mouth…even typing this out is making me gag.
People often ask me, if I had to describe my misophonia in one way how would I describe it, I say this:
“Imagine chewing shards of broken glass…you know that cold shiver that you just got.That’s how I feel when I hear something that triggers misophonia.”
In the morning, even a small cough from my sister can wake me up.
It’s not that loud, but because the frequency is so high, it always wakes me up.
However, because of this happening so frequently during the night it results in me having barely any sleep.
I will usually go into a room thats free and put my headphones on and listen to something that I know will relax me.
After that, I will keep my headphones on and go about getting ready.
As I traipse downstairs to pack my stuff away, I can literally hear someone eating breakfast from the other end of the hallway, so this results in one ear pressed against my shoulder, the other ear pressed against my free hand.
Because noise is everywhere there can be complete random times where this will trigger me, and when looking at it from this whole fight or flight perspective, I was always fight.
Now I’m more about flight…its just easier to get away from that noise.
When I get in from university, its usually quite late, around 7pm, therefore my dad has cooked food, so as we are eating, my headphones go on which means no socialising with my family. No finding out about their day etc. because I have something blasting through my headphones trying to get away from it all.
I’m usually the first one to leave the dinner table, usually not completely full, but wanting to get away from it all.
It can be the same when it comes to recording my show for Spark FM.
When the mic is sometimes to loud or if someone does something into the mic that effects me…well lets just refer back to the hypothetical chewing glass situation.
These are some of the reasons why misophonia is ruining my life, and when I explain what it is some people say, “I’m sure I have that”, but they honestly don’t know just how severe it can actually be.