I recently watched a documentary called Kids in Crisis which featured young children and teenagers who had mental health problems. These children had a formal diagnosis. I’ve also had a family member recently diagnosed with reactive depression, who is merely a young person themselves. That is a strong diagnosis to place on someone so young.
Many clinicians are reluctant to place such a permanent diagnosis on young people but alas many young people do have a formal diagnosis. A label that will stick to them for life. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while you’ll know that I was recently diagnosed with anxiety and OCD, if you haven’t well now you know! I’m always going to have these disorders. They are part of me, but they do not make up my identity as such. They aren’t a positive label to have. Being labelled with a mental health problem isn’t good at all. But we can use it to our advantage. Something not many people see.
Today mental health problems still have a stigma attached to them. Depression, anxiety, OCD, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, schizophrenia, anorexia, bulimia… every mental health problem has a stigma. Not every physical health problem does. I feel like today’s generation who have been placed in the “persons who are mentally unwell” box are going to be faced with a lot of stigma.
I know that I’ve been experiencing my current symptoms since the age of 14, but I never thought anything of it. I used to collect bottle tops, worry if I lost something to the point where I’d have a panic attack and so much more. I had low confidence too. I thought this was normal. I thought I had Asperger’s Syndrome at one point after researching, but ignored it, mainly because of the stigma attached to learning difficulties.
I never let the stuff that was going on in my head show. At least I tried not to. It was difficult but I made it through until I was triggered by an event in college which made things spiral. This is when the stigma hit me head on. I felt judged from that point onwards at the age of 19. Stigma from everywhere I turned. That’s why I didn’t get a formal diagnosis till now.
Concerned parents take their children to the doctors and they get a mental health diagnosis. Some Dr’s take the chance and wait until the child is older. Young people have more agency in this decision. They can decide whether to approach the health sector. They can’t easily be forced unless they are compelled to do so by the Mental Health Act. Yet no one has a choice whether stigma hits them. At all.
Stigma is all around us. We have seen it in the media recently. There is a real lack of understanding around mental health problems. People think that OCD is just about wanting to clean or having things in order. There are different types of OCD. There are different types of anxiety, different types of depression. Mental health problems affect us in different ways and people don’t see that. We are placed into a strict box that I personally find it hard to get out of. I don’t have a problem with cleaning, in fact I probably have one of the messiest rooms ever! I don’t just worry about everything. I worry about specific things. People don’t understand.
I feel lucky that I’ve been able to do some things in life before my formal diagnosis. I had the choice. My anxiety and OCD has just been placed on my record. I chose to have it on there. Children don’t have that option unless they are deemed able to understand the consequences. The consequences of what is going on in their mind. I’ve been able to hold down jobs, been able to go to college and start university.
I fear that for people with a mental health diagnosis on their record that they may feel that these things aren’t possible for them. They are possible, you just have to fight to prove it. It frightens me to think that just because I and many other young people have a mental health problem or problems, that we are treated unequally because of a lack of understanding. The mind and body are connected. So why can’t mental health problems be treated the same as physical health problems. Physical health can be managed as well as mental health problems. They may never go away but we can minimise the effect that they have on us.
Necessary things can be done for people with physical health problems and disabilities although of course there is still stigma, but for those with mental health problems this isn’t so easy, which is why I think there is a reluctancy. People don’t know what to do, how to react, how to feel about someone with anxiety or OCD or any other mental health problem. It scares me to think of my family member, that they will have to go through this. They will have to break down the walls that I’m having to, right now. That they will have to fight to get what they want out of life.
I won’t let my mental health problems stop me. EVER. I want to be a journalist, I want to work in the political arena. I want to do so many things. I am determined to do things and I won’t let anything get in the way. I may be stubborn but for good reason. I will always think of my health, but my passion and my drive is just as important to me. Even though my mental health will get in the way sometimes, I will not let it win entirely. Before I had my mental health problems, I could function “normally” as society would say. I can still function well but sometimes my anxiety and OCD get in the way and mess with my head. I’m debating about whether to do a post about my OCD and the obsessive thoughts I have (let me know if you want to see this…).
I also want to point out the fact that being diagnosed with a mental health problem or problems is not a sign of weakness. It shows that you have strength to recognise your feelings and have been able to recognise that the thoughts or symptoms are not “normal” for you. Everyone has a different normal, remember that. It is only society that places the line between normal and abnormal.
Personally asking how I am will not work. Being a young person asking how they are will make it harder. Being a young person is hard enough right now in the political climate that we are in. Having a mental health diagnosis makes this even harder. We are not “crazy” or “mad” or “nuts”, we are people, with emotions. We are all different but society pushes us further from this. We are too different and we always have been since the mental asylum, possibly before that. Society has to put an ideal on the human race. Some people are more aspired to than others. No one aspires to have a mental health problem, it just happens. Mental health problems do not discriminate, so why should the human race?
I constantly feel like the label of me having mental health problems should be removed, but it can’t be and it is like that for so many others.
It’s difficult to fight against what is going on in your head. Your mind should do what you want it to, but these thoughts are involuntary. It’s what’s wrong, the mental health problem becomes who you are. Sometimes I feel like I’m not Sophie, I’m the person with anxiety and OCD. I want to bring awareness of these two disorders because I want to help the next generation explain to others so that the stigma can lessen, just like the Disability Movement and so many before and after me will try to do. I want to succeed in minimising the stigma.
It is time to talk, time to educate and most importantly time to change otherwise we will keep going around in circles. These young people should not have to face it. So why let them?